Sometimes

Posted on 26/10/2014 by Rav3n

Sometimes
I wonder how you are and
How have you been
I miss you dearly
But I know I have to sit still
And ignore what
I’m feeling
Because it’s the right thing

Sometimes
I wonder when you talk to her
At night
Do you feel the same connection
We had towards her
Do you have the same tether
We once had
Or are we all the same and
Everything was just a game?

Sometimes
I want to be mad
I want you to feel the same pain
I have
I want you to go through
What I’m going through
So you’ll understand
How it feels to be in my shoe
But I love you too much
To wish as such
So I’ll try to be happy
That you found someone new

Sometimes
I don’t want to remember
Anything we shared
But what we had is too precious
For me to forget
Our memories is stuck
At the back of my head
It seeps at night
And reminds me
In my sleep

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My Love for You

Posted on 25/10/2014 by Rav3n

My love for you
Cannot be bought
It is priceless
You can never compare
No matter what you think of me
I’ll still love you the same

I will never betray you
Like everybody else did
No matter how much you’ve
Hurt me
Your story will stay with me
And I’ll take it to my grave
Your heart will always be safe

My love for you
Will stay
Even when you chose
To walk away
My heart still beats for you
It doesn’t matter how
Long it takes
Until it fade away

I’ll never regret the days
I spent with you
Or how many months I wasted
Sitting by the phone
Because the little time
We had
You always made my day

My love for you will bide
Its time and I’m not going
To push it away
Instead
I’ll sit here and reminisce
The best times we once had
And preserve each
Precious Moments and
Place it in the happy box
Of mine

So go on with your happy life
I don’t mind
If you already found
Someone new
I can still love you
From far away and
Be happy
Because somehow
I have memories of you

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For The Very First Time

Posted on 24/10/2014 by Rav3n

My heart got broken a few times
Before
I thought
I’ll be immune to pain by now
But when you left me
I felt like my heart
Break
For the very first time

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Heartache

Posted on 19/10/2014 by Rav3n

I remember you said
You wouldn’t leave me and
You’ll be there
When I need you
You’ll be around
You’ll be with me
And we will find a
Common ground

But you left without
Telling me that you’re leaving
It hurts so much and
I wasn’t prepared from
This kind of pain

Now I just have to sit and
Wait until my
Heartaches end

Slow Down Heart

Posted on 17/10/2014 by Rav3n

My heart skipped a beat
When I saw you
I told myself
Slooow dooown heart
Or you’ll have a
Heart attack
Breathe in and
Breathe out or
You’re going to pass out

Get hold of yourself
Before you make yourself
Look like a fool
It’s just him and
He won’t even look at you

So calm down
And put your brakes on
He’s with someone else now
And you have to move on

Be still heart
He’s not yours anymore
So keep walking and
Pretend you saw nothing

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This pills

Posted on 12/10/2014 by Rav3n

If pills can take me
To a happy place
I will take it any day
Maybe illusion is
Just what it takes
To see you again
In this lonely place

I’m living in a delusion
But all I see is a
Headless apparition
I’m hoping to see your face
Even for the last time
But everything is a haze
And just lead me to confusion

Is it you who I see or
Is it someone else?
I’m too daze
To know the reality
This pills
This pills
Has taken its toll on me

Walk away

Posted on 18/09/2014 by Rav3n

Often times we find ourselves
Thinking
Why is it so hard to let go
Of someone we care so much

This someone you can never have
Is someone who does not
misses you and
Do not feel the same at all

You keep pretending
That all is well
Even when your heart
Is screaming
I want you back
Love me back
All the words is just stuck
In your throat
You can’t utter the words

You are afraid he will
Tell you no
Tell you to move on
Tell you to let go
And find someone else
Who can love you the same

Why fear losing that person
When he is causing you pain
Even when you hope until the end
Of the world
He’s not going to run back to you
And tell you “I do not want
To live in a world without you”

So why stay
When there is nothing to hold on to
You are not a masochist
So why let the pain linger
To your vein?
The world will keep on spinning
Even when you die on your longing
He will keep resisting
He will keep his routine and
He will move on
You’ll just be a distant
memory to him
So maybe you should
Do the same

You know when he tells you
It’s nothing
It is usually something
He is just being sympathetic
So you could stop hurting

Why stay?
When he’s not doing anything
To keep you
He didn’t even ask you to stay
He is okay if you walk away
Because he already did
A long time ago
Now it’s time for you to learn
To let go

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Schizophrenia of love

Posted on 17/09/2014 by Rav3n

Every time I’m with you
You light the fire in me
You press my buttons every time

I’m not even sure what makes me mad
It’s just frustrations that builds
Inside of me

When I can’t touch you or
Hear your voice
It morphs me to a different person
Because it is all
You I see
You are the only one
Who can tame the beast
Side of me

I call it Schizophrenia of love
Stuck with my delusions
Everything is a hallucination
I’m pretty sure hereditary is
Not a factor
So what else could it be?

When you talk to me
You take away the rational
Part of me
When your lips touch mine
You make my knees weak
And make me sigh
It’s you I crave every time

The Schizophrenia of love
It makes me lose reality
I couldn’t find myself and
Know where I should be
I swear I’m somewhere
Inside my cerebrum
Trying to find my way out

Schizophrenia of love
This is your effect on me

Deafening silence

Posted on 11/09/2014 by Rav3n

Your silence is deafening
It echoes through my body
So loud and empty

I hear your voice
In my head
Telling me lies and sweet nothing
Ah! A crescendo of my misery

I try to turn it down
But the decibel increased
Desperately
Led me to a hopeless state

Hearing your voice
Makes me shiver
It breaks my heart
When I hear you whisper

I just want everything to end
And not hear your music again
The calmness of your voice
When you say my name
It’s still etch on my veins

Your silence is deafening
I hear you clearly
Walk away, walk away
Walk far away from me
So your silence should give me
Serenity

I can’t find the words to say Goodbye

Posted on 03/09/2014 by Rav3n

I’m trying to conjure words
To say Goodbye
Words that would set me free
From this love Divine

Oh, How hard to come up
With the right words
Trying to find the pieces in literary
But the words I sought is not
Part of the vocabulary
Not even in any pages of
The dictionary

I couldn’t even compel my own heart
To agree and say things
It should be
Because this stubborn heart
Has its own mentality and
My brain just end up in
Short circuits
Maybe I should get a Lobotomy

So you see?
How it makes it so confusing
When your mind and heart
Disagrees
The reason I couldn’t
Find the words to say Goodbye
I’m playing tug and war
Within me

I couldn’t find the right words
To say goodbye
Maybe because what I
Want is a lie

So I’ll wait for another day
Maybe then
The words would seek me
In the depths of
My misery